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  Here we are, nine months down, 3 hellish months left of the year. This was the month I started my first semester of College. I want to start with talking about College because since the first day of College I instantly knew that it wasn’t for me. I want to drop out of College but I feel that window has passed for one big reason. If I drop out I have to forfeit all my financial aid, and I would owe a grand total of $4,792.00. I do not have that amount of money as of now and even more so because I had to quit my job to go to College full time, which I now regret. What I would like to do at this moment is Drop College and go back to work, but because of finances, I can’t right now. It’s left me feeling really upset and depressed because I can’t get myself out when I so desperately want to get out. The whole reason I went to College was from Pressure I felt from teachers, my high school guidance counselor, and my mother (who wanted us all to go to College). Because of College I feel ...

  The eclipse always makes me happy, I don’t see it often but when I do, it’s heaven on earth, The eclipse respects me, and I respect the eclipse, respect is what gets the both of us places, Once the eclipse lapses though, everything goes, the eclipse stops seeing me, the eclipse ended, and i became a stranger to it, never to see each other again.

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  [Vent] Feelings I’ve had some thoughts over the past few days and I just feel the need to write them down. College started last week and I’ve just felt so out of place, like I shouldn’t be there at all. That’s been a gut feeling for months now, that I shouldn’t go to college. The only reason I kept ignoring it was because everyone else kept pressuring me to go to college. When picking college I didn’t even get to pick the college I wanted to go to. My first choice was hvcc, but my parents refused to let me have a choice and forced me to go with acc. I didn’t get any freedom in my choice for college at all. My parents would’ve had to drive me to any of the colleges because I don’t have a license. If you can’t tell, my parents (especially my mom) don’t want to let go and let me spread my wings. They’re so afraid I’ll make a mistake(which THATS GOING TO HAPPEN IT’S NORMAL) that they wedge themselves in every crease possible to force themselves into all my affairs. They are technical...